I usually blog when I feel inspired. Lately that has not been the case. To be honest I’ve glossed over this chronic illness thing on my blog. I’ve made you think my life is okay and that I never have bad days. But truthfully this is far from the truth. I want to be raw with you all today and just explain what I’ve been going through for the past few years.
For the past two weeks I have been vomiting fluid and solids. This has been coupled with more muscle aches and weakness. My parents took me to the ER where I received an IV and medication to stop the vomiting. Today is day fifteen and I am still unable to eat full meals and drink water without sipping. I feel miserable and depressed.
On top of this stress, my core medical team is changing, and this is frustrating. Having to start from scratch with someone new terrifies me but this is something that must be done. The ER doctor suggested that I could be aspirating food and liquid into my lungs due to a muscle issue. In the coming weeks I will be seeing a gastroenterologist for an endoscopy and colonoscopy to try to figure out what is causing my digestive issues.
From there, I will have to find a new neurologist and I’m so nervous. In my experience neurologist are not the nicest doctors out there. Many will call you crazy if they can’t find a cause. But I always say listen to your body and keep pushing. Doctors are limited in knowledge and varied in their opinions. Don’t allow their words to make you doubt yourself. I’m trying to learn this now after seven years of heartache dealing with my health.
I ask for patience please as I try to heal. With all of this going on I have not been able to focus on the blog or social media. Those who follow me on Instagram may have noticed I haven’t posted since January 25th, which is terrible. But I’ve just been feeling really terrible. Things to look forward to:
- A product that will make urgent bathroom visits a little less embarrassing
- A candy lover’s dream
- A makeup case perfect for girls on the go
In addition to these things I will be trying to bring you more original content with my mother and blog partner. We have both been down and out, but we are trying to keep pushing forward.
Thank you so much for understanding and we hope to be back better than ever soon enough.