My entire life I have struggled with my weight. As a child, tipping the scale at an unimaginable number at the age of 9, my mother decided to send us to camp for the summer. I hated the entire experience. My camp counselor would mock me along with my peers about my weight. I still remember the first time I heard the word cellulite. My peers and I were playing volleyball and I was wearing a pair of blue shorts. A young girl turned around and screamed eww so loudly that everyone stopped playing and stared at me. Her friend turned to her and said, “oh that’s cellulite,” and they all began to laugh.
This was only the first of many terrible experiences for me regarding my weight. When I turned 17, all of the weight began to fall off and for the first time, I liked the way my body looked. I was learning a foreign language, hanging out every weekend and just enjoying life. Then, I began to experience the effects of a condition that changed my life forever. Between the depression and medications, I gained over 60 pounds during three months.
The idea that I could gain so much weight so fast and have such a difficult time losing it, frustrated me to no end. Honestly, I just want to feel like I am not the fat sister anymore. I know that I preach “being your own kind of beautiful” and I still stand by that. But, if your weight makes you uncomfortable, change what you can to make yourself feel better. My sister, Shannon, the owner of Beauty by Vershel, encouraged me this morning to lose weight for myself and no other people. Because, if someone doesn’t love me because of my weight then they are not worth my time.
Losing weight will be no easy task. I use a wheelchair and cannot stand for long periods of time. With that in mind, I searched the internet looking for chair exercises that would help me lose weight without being strenuous. This led me to www.nhs.uk , they had a print out of six chair exercises that I can do three times a week to gain strength in my arms.
Because I share most things with you all, I will be sharing my weight loss progress also. I will be seeing a nutritionist who will help me develop a better relationship with my body and food. I hope that some of you will join me on this journey of self-discovery and body acceptance. Remember, love who you are and if you don’t like something about yourself change what you can and learn to accept what you cannot.